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When it came out that 7th Heaven’s Stephen Collins (who played Reverend – REVEREND!! – Eric Camden) had a history of child molestation I was shocked. Then I got angry. I am still angry and probably will be for a long, long time.

I, like the little girls who suffered the confusing experience, am a victim of child molestation. I was around 6 or 7 when it happened, I only remember one instance of it, but that 5 minutes of memory has haunted me ever since. This experience has been one I have wanted to share with my readers, but every time I try to write it I can’t finish.

It’s amazing what such a short blink in time can do to shape a person for the rest of their life. I started going down a dangerous path in high school that was nipped in the bud because I realized it. I could be dead now because of some stupid decisions I made back then. It was also then that those memories of what happened began to surface so I am honestly not at all surprised I was as self destructive as I was.

Since then I have learned to cope with it. As a mother I am fiercely protective of my children and rarely let anyone watch them, which although can be a tough thing for marriage, it’s also an understanding between my husband and I. I’m scared to death that they will get into a situation where they will be taken advantage of – like I was – and it will hurt them forever.

With my situation, like so many other survivors out there, it was a trusted friend of the family. This asshole saw an opportunity to be his true deviant self while ruining my childhood. MY life was forever changed because HE wanted to.

He had no right to do this, and neither does Stephen Collins. I hope those children can get past this, but I know they never really will.

Stephen, you have NO RIGHT to enjoy your life after ruining theirs.

I hope you rot in hell.

* I know there has been a lot of controversy around the allegations. But I also know that he admitted it on tape. If you’d like to listen you can find them on TMZ, but be warned that I couldn’t finish listening to the audio. I do believe he was being truthful and even though there are issues around his divorce I feel strongly that that what he said he did, he did. And rotting in hell is what I wish for EVERY child molester out there.