I don’t know if it’s the drugs, the bedrest, or what but I am feeling completely overwhelmed right now. I don’t think I want to talk about this whole experience until there is something to talk about.
I’ve updated all I know, and I know I won’t have anything else until next week. I don’t want to over-analyze symptoms, talk about how I’m feeling, etc because frankly I will drive myself nuts. Also my feelings physical and emotional change at the drop of a hat, so I don’t know how much real truth there is in “how I feel”. Just know I’m excited, scared, happy, depressed, in pain, feel just fine… I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel so I will just feel it all. Or nothing. Or some. I don’t know.
I just want to believe this has worked and let it be.